at least today cant be erased.

02:11 pm

well what i wanna tell you today is about... (guess what?)
yes about my twin and i, (her flight to japan was delayed, and today is exactly six days before she left). yup this is our story and i try to summarize all about my life... for her ;)

firstly, i want to send my gratitude softly to my parents :D, because of them i have a friend when i was born.

hee~ uhnn. what words could i have used to tell you..
its kindaa....

dear my twin sis,
who always hanging around with. she want to spread her wings.
these are my story about the amazingly boring days we spend together :p , kiddin.
and these are my words to you, twin.

i know you never show people your pain or sorrow.
and i really know that your tears were hidden in a smile of false bravado.
i hide a lot of thing from you twin. and i know you didn't hide anything to me right? yah except your tears that you shared to the wall. sorry for not be able to be with when you cried. it because when i saw you cried, i began to cry too. its painful huh.

thanks for a lot of things that we shared together :D.
thanks for giving a small laugh when i'm tired. my weakness is really similar to your own pain. i can feel the things that happened to you and i think you can feel the same with me.
thanks for giving the me back when i lose my sight to set out on a journey, then you gave me the courage to live over and over again.

yes, i always remember your words about our dreams. we believe that everyone has their own way to success. and this is my way, often you couldn't find me at home. and looked very tired when i got home. yes it is "me". you also know, not just a dream that i want to accomplish. you know there is love that suddenly came to me, i believe he gotta be my last. i grasp them (love and dreams) on my hands. yes you know me, more than i know myself, twin.

i just remember even if we are far apart for one year. i'll head toward a future full of memories. though i disappear, at least my writing to you that will not be erased. is it your word, isn't it?

just for remembering you, when i close my eyes at my office right now. its like the 19years i spent with you come back to my mind.
perhaps many things are forgotten, but i remember our parents never differentiate us, especially in education.
today, as my memories join together, i'll called the tiny pieces of warmth.

we exchange the student book in our Junior HS and Senior HS, through the window. yes we are in a hurry, cursing each other when too late or forget to give books. remember?
my bedroom and your bedroom was different when we in Junior HS. i like the light and you really like the dark, so you close the window. although my room larger, you do not envy me. quite the contrary we take turns and always sleep in one room, whether your bedroom or my bedroom. and what i always know, we are always together. and we know that "life is great", right?

when we to be university student, we shared room since we moved a small home but have the fullest of warmth. you and me really love arashi. yes all about them. we watched them repeatedly.
they are five colored rainbow. we really realized that arashi is happiness to us. and they inspired us. with dreams :D

we are to young, yes we are just too young to give up in our condition.
no matter how we spend the days, just keep believing in the now.
Allah surely with us :D

time wont stand still. so reach out your hands. we started running with unquenchable thirst, it because we realized our hearts couldn't be deceived.
just remember you are not alone, when you wipe your tears, you'll realize what is the most precious to you :D

im sure the one path meant just for us will begin.
the times when we feel kindness will lead us to happiness. i felt that, we could laugh together, we could walk forward one tiny step at a time.
and remember,
our dreams are like our breath. we take time time for each one.
times are sometimes bittersweet but just kept on running twin.
you know this words?

i am waiting at the finish line
or wait for me at the finish line

yes, wait: D.
after that we walk together again.
then we'll shine even brighter than the ever shining sun.
well, dreams continue on this road :D.
lets do our best.

"on that day you said to me when, it doesnt matter "when" anyomore. we met a lot, understood slowly, seasons came near and we cried a lot. you are you,paint your dreams large. i'm aiming for success here. Because there is no tomorrow if i just wait, because it won't start here so I moved on."
"あの日 君は僕になんて言ってたっけ..."
なんて言ったってもう関係ないね
散々会って 段々分かって 季節迫り来て散々泣いて
君は君 夢 でっかく描いて
僕はここから成功を願ってる
「待ってるだけじゃ明日はないから
動いた ここじゃ始まらないから」

it is our favourite lyric of one our favorite songs. we always sang when we went home at motorcycle.


i hope this words reach you :D

*this is the longest post i've ever made for my blog in one day. is it great?